This blog will basically be my life in general. Just highlights, important events, basic living, thoughts, and living for God. I will post anything that I find appropriate and interesting, which should be interesting and diverse, considering my three greatest hobbies are gaming, writing, and appreciating music. I will try not to make it boring, so I won't go into excruciating detail, unless it is called for, of course. Pretty much, i am just doing this so that i will have a way to clear my thoughts and put them out there, since I consider myself at least somewhat creative. I AM A CHRISTIAN. If anything i say offends you...well, Jesus still loves you.
It has been a while since I have posted on my blog. So much has happened. I graduated high school. I feel as if I will never see that place again. Maybe I will visit sometime… if I ever have time, seeing as college is going to be super busy. My relationship with God is at a turning point that won’t be over until I get settled into college life. So is my relationship with the woman that I love. I am actually debating on starting a vlog, too. Maybe, maybe not. It would mainly consist of my life as a college student. I could use it for documentation purposes. I also want to do Let’s Play’s for Youtube. That would be a cool hobby. Maybe I could use the vlogs as an intro to my Lets Play series. Hmmm…
But I digress. All in all, over the time that I have spent not doing anything on my blog, I have been struggling in my walk with God. For a while, I got out of all the habits that would make up a Christian life. It had its moments, but all in all I just felt bad all the time. It was like I had a sickness that wasn’t extremely painful or uncomfortable, but was just in the background picking at my nerves. I went places that I haven’t gone to since I started walking with God. I’m not happy with myself that I did those things, but I have come to terms with it, and I do believe that God has forgiven me, just has His word says He would and will. That is one of the most amazing things about God. His forgiveness and grace. They last forever, never letting us go. I still remember the night that I cried out to God, repenting of the darkness I had walked into.
I felt His arms around me, pouring His love over me like a bucket of cold water, but also like a father’s embrace. I felt all of my guilt go away. All of my sadness. All of my pain. I was free!
So now, I am back on the path. My relationships survived through the ordeal, and I am stronger, smarter, and closer to God for it all.
So now I’m getting ready for college. I move in in less than two weeks. I have many feelings on the matter. At times I feel acute anxiety and stress, and other times I feel this powerful excitement that makes me want to just head to Williamsport right now and move in REALLY early.
On top of all that, my iPod decided to take a poop on me the other day. I just got done putting some CCR on it, and then it takes forever to sync with iTunes. At first I saw it as just an annoyance, but then I went to restart my iPod, and what do you know? It completely erased all of my songs, videos, podcasts, and pictures. 25Gb of information…gone. Just like that. On top of all that, now when I plug my iPod into my laptop to sync up to iTunes, it makes iTunes freeze and crash. I have tried everything and am now looking into a new music listening device. I am definitely going with a classic 30GB Zune this time around. I’m sick of how expensive Apple products are. -_-
So that is my life in a nutshell at this time. Thanks for reading my thoughts. Time for me to hit the hay. G’night everybody.
Today is probably one of the best days of my life. Not because I was in a blissful mood all day long, and not because everything went the way that i wanted it to. Today was good because it was real. I spent all day with the woman that I love more than I have loved anyone in a long, long, long time. I won’t go into detail, but I will say that we have had a rough history, and there are many things that I did that I regret. I have beat myself to an emotional pulp over the past year because of what i did to her, and that has caused me to become complacent with my life. While we ate at Applebee’s, we talked… a lot. It wasn’t the lovey-dovey stuff that one would expect in a young person’s life. It was (as I have previously said) real. I finally know what is going on in her head, at least as much as I will be able to understand at the moment. :) But I now know that she is willing to stick it out with me, as long as I am willing stick it out with her. I thank God every day for her, and I also thank Him for the awesome patience that I have been blessed with, because without it, I would be doing the same thing that I did in the past with her…and that is something that I promise (to her and everyone who hears it) I will NEVER do again. I am in this for the long haul, because God has given me a glimpse of what will come of it, and that prize, that end result, is something I will fight to the ends of the world for.